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A Conundrum

 The good days give me the worst anxiety. The song dedications and the banter make me feel all fuzzy and warm on the inside. However, my confidence is a fleeting mirage. I struggle daily to keep it up. It's easier with you because you're so far away. I don't know what I would do if you were here, standing in front of me. I have nightmares about that day. I guess I just didn't expect you to respond, but if I'm being completely honest, I hoped you would. And you did. And you're perfect. Just try not to be so loving and caring all the time, it stresses me out.  It's only me, Allison. I don't deserve all this.

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  1. Unknown4 July 2021 at 16:36

    Allison, i think you express yourself in the most beautiful way...i am in awe of your writing and i pray you never stop...godspeed on this journey you've undertaken❤️

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    1. THE LAYMAN4 July 2021 at 23:15

      I've had many doubts about writing but I've learnt to let the words flow from a place of truth. Thank you.♥️

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